Replaced.

we're a couple of days away from 4 months. you said we'll be together for a long time. i didnt think "long time" meant 4 months.. i really hate how we're always like this.

why did you tell me this days later? why couldnt you tell me the minute you got your phone back? i hate how you always hide stuff from me, you say you tell me everything, but thats a bunch of lie. cause i know for a fact that theres many things about you that i dont know yet. even though you've lied to me a lot of times, hid stuff from me, i still tried my best to forgive you. ive been thru it a lot, ive gotten mad at you, ive forgiven you. but this time, this was the worst thing that you had ever done.. honestly, you might think its not bad.. but to me, thats everything. was it really necessary to tell someone to look at my formspring first before you look at it cause your scared of seeing something that will hurt you? honestly? do you not trust me that much? that you assume that you will see something that will hurt you.. do you understand how stupid that is? because i TELL YOU to read my formspring. if i was hiding something from you, i WOULDNT tell you to look at that freaking website! think about it?! and what makes it worst, the person you told to look at it is your precious bestfriend. because apparently he knows what will hurt you and what wont, and he is just "protecting" you. WHY CANT I DO THAT?! i can protect you! and you say he just doesnt want what happened with you and your ex to happen to me and you. DO YOU HONESTLY THINK IM THAT TYPE OF GUY AND DO WHAT YOUR STUPID EX DID?! IM A BETTER PERSON THAN THAT. I WAS BORN AND RAISED A CATHOLIC, I HAVE MORALS. I KNOW HOW TO TREAT A LADY, IM A GENTLEMAN, I WOULD NEVER EVER CHEAT OR FLIRT WITH ANYONE WHEN I KNOW THAT IM ALREADY IN LOVE WITH ONE PERSON. THE ONLY PERSON THAT I NEED. if you think im like that, then fine, LEAVE ME, before i "do" what you assume i will do! cause if your gonna think that way, might as well save yourself some pain and just leave before i do something "stupid" like what your ex did to you. I DONT NEED YOUR BITCH PROTECTING YOU FROM ME, BECAUSE I CAN MANAGE TO PROTECT YOU MYSELF.

By doing what you did, really hurt me, it was a slap in the face, it made me feel untrusted, i felt like im incredibly useless that i cant protect you, it made me feel like he is the better person than i am, because he can make you smile. he has never yelled at you. he never got mad at you. ONLY ME, and you never had a fight with a guy before, EXCEPT me. thats just a little part of how i feel. i wont even tell you the rest. this is just to much. the more i type this, the more i wanna fucking just drop dead. cause honestly,



my heart is broken.